Farewells

December 4, 2007 at 8:58 am (friends)

I’m not good with goodbyes. It’s one of those things that doesn’t sit well with me. Not only do I choke up completely, I can’t deal with it so I shut down and it seems as if I don’t care.

Problem is, I care too much. And whenever I face emotions that are to heavy to deal with I close off completely.

Anyway.

Today I say goodbye to someone who I’ve grown very close to in the past year. We’ve been friends for a while but have really bonded this year which makes her leaving so much more sad.

She’s an amazing woman with unbelievable strength, even thought she doesn’t always know it. There’s something special about her – her unfettered joy, her ability to make people laugh, her big emotions and neverending warmth.

I’m going to stop here because as I’m writing this I’m getting that choked feeling. My throat is closing up and I feel a tear starting to form. I’m just too sad (even though I’m also happy that she’s going).

So all I can say is, goodbye Mrs M. Until later.

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3 Comments

  1. MrsM said,

    It was a Randy Crawford song that did it, Toby…

    After I had said my many goodbyes at the office today, I got into my car and merged with Ct traffic when I decided to listen to something a little more mellow on my way home.

    ” One Day I’ll Fly Away…” it’s called. And then I started thinking about you and everything you’ve meant to me, especially this past year and how often I would call you for a chat, or run something by you and ask for your advice. I remember spending times at your place, or going for lunch, or talking to the wee hours of the morning, discussing saying “this PAST decade” instead of this LAST decade and oh, the gossip, and the jokes and the journo stories and the crazy people and and and…

    Tobricia (yes, that’s her real name) I love you very much. And I cried and cried and then decided to call you, which wasn’t the best idea at the time, but I did any way because who cares that I’m trying to overtake a truck with one arm on the steering wheel anyway?!

    My friend, you mean the absolute world to me. Please know that your place in my heart can never be filled by anyone else. I’m going to miss you very very much.

    Love F

  2. MrsM said,

    *I have no idea where my other comment went!*

    It was a Randy Crawford song that did it.

    the one called ” One Day I’ll fly Away” and then I thought about how I spent lunches with you, times at your place, my parday, asking you for advice, telling you about my latest issue, complaining, gossipping, and and…

    And when that song started playing I couldn’t stop thinking about you and everything you’ve come to mean to me this past (not last!!) year especially. It wasn’t the best idea to call you right then, but I did anyway…I mean, who cares that I’m trying to overtake a truck with one arm on the steering wheel anyway!!

    Thank you for everything you’ve meant and will continue to mean to me. Please know that nobody will ever replace you, in my heart…you know you mean the absolute world to me and you always will.

  3. tbhanks said,

    *openly sobbing yet again*

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